This CHC scandal is really driving me nuts. Let's recognize a few points: 1. The church members are not necessarily gullible nor stupid. It's not as though they were watching Sell-A-Vision and decided that there was something they needed, and therefore they needed to give their money away to CHC. Let's recognise that they could understand for themselves why they were tithing, that they have all the power in the world to tithe whatever amount they wanted, and that they were ultimately responsible for their actions in giving. Nothing wrong with that, we are called to tithe by the bible, and there is a guideline set up in there - if anybody wanted to know this information, all they had to do was look and find out. What I really cannot stand is people now using this to bash on Christians - calling them stupid, gullible, talking about how they'd rather spend their 10%. Yeah, nobody cares how you want to spend your money, stop scrutinizing how other people spend theirs. You may see fit to save it for your trip abroad, we believe in something different. Josephine - ultimate stupidity. Advertising on facebook the horrible things she'd like to do if she wasn't so lazy. She'd like to con emotionally needy people into giving her money and believing in something she knows NOTHING about. By know, I mean understand. It bothers me, the horrible things coming out of people's mouths. But I must remember that God can vindicate himself. What I need to pray for is the country, the people (even the ones saying horrible things and judge judge judging..) and just.. for strength for those facing scrutiny. Lord, please have mercy. Let your goodness endure even in this dark day..

I wish I could live in this movie. It was just an amazing night. Most of all, I wish I could share the way I feel about these things with Ivan, that he would know, and we would connect. But I know that's asking a lot.

I've lost myself. I've lost the one I love and I've lost myself. I feel nothing. I feel nothing in my arms, nothing in my head, nothing in my heart. All I feel is this strange desire to plunge into a large pool of water and to stay down for as long as I can, to push the very limits of my life.